In my life and my practice I have been trying to refine what I have into my daily practice, trying to keep to the basic simple things and redefine my goals (not ego) in becoming a better person and martial artist.
This is not easy for me as I have a wealth of knowledge and experience and trying to refine that down to the essential things, the most important things has been a bit of a thought wrangling process and also a bit of experimentation. Initially i went back to my roots and just looked at the Chu Gar Kuen I had learned previously, I did not have the will or determination and also felt that I had outgrown it in some ways. It belonged to another era and yes I feel I need to pass it on, but that does not mean I have to practice it?
I have systematically been through all the things I have done over the years and none of them seemed to fit, I have tried Hunyuan, Sun Style, Krabi Krabong and the FMA, but they all seemed to lacking something. I meditated on this issue and looked at myself my situation and also my motivation. I needed to go back to the simple things and what simpler than standing.
I have embarked upon a standing routine that draws on all my previous skills and knowledge, it is not something I have spent a lot of time doing previously, apart from San Ti and so it is with a renewed outlook and a belief that less is more. I have been practicing everyday.
The idea for me is not to be anything or become anyone, but to just develop who i can be. There are many things in life we cant control, many things that try to control us and all we can do is not cling to the existence, don’t let thought cloud our way just except who and what we are.